Ushering in My Saturn Return | My Birthday Letter

My Birthday Letter

Every year for the last few years, I’ve taken on the challenge of writing a letter reflecting on the past year, written as advice to someone else. It’s like an extended journal entry and a good way to summarize the year, so to celebrate turning 27 on Sunday, here is entry no. 5:

Last year for my birthday I was gifted a book called Simple Abundance by Sarah Ban Breathnach, a passage a day book that helps a woman step into herself, practice balance and curate self love.

Little did I know when I cracked it open on January 1st that I would step into a challenging year ahead that would test me in ways I thought I had already been tested.

When I was 23, I set a 10-year plan for myself that helped me keep my head down and focus on my goals of being a creator economy lawyer and entrepreneur, moving back to Miami, and traveling the world. I thought that by 33, I would have this incredible, abundant life, so I created a roadmap for who I would be then and how I would get there.

Sure, I’m not there yet, but I guess I thought by 27, I would be much closer than where I currently am. And in some ways, I am, but in others, I’m not, and it’s that lack that I have dwelled in.

So, reading Simple Abundance and really leaning into a yoga and journaling practice has helped me unpack that.

The conclusion? I need to give myself more grace. More compassion.

As a dancer growing up, I experienced the pressure to always get it right and look flawless.

Life isn’t as effortless as a well-practiced ballet. Neither is the ballet, really. A lot of blood, sweat, and tears go into it.

So why do I still hold myself to that standard? Especially when no one else does. It's a coping mechanism, I think. We all want to be liked, be fun to be around, and seem like we have it all together.

But that extra pressure I placed on myself isn’t healthy, so as my Saturn return approaches—aka when Saturn returns to the position it was in when I was born (usually between 27 and 29.5)—I am using this time to let go of those pressures and rules.

It’s time to practice compassion and embrace who I am as I am. I need to spend more time alone, in spaces that make me happy and inspire me, and be surrounded by people who inspire me, too, so I can feel more empowered and aligned with my purpose and goals.

Because those haven’t changed much since I was 23, I’ve always known what I wanted, just the approach has changed.

I don’t need to be all or nothing, and I don’t have to have all the answers. It's okay to embrace the feminine approach of letting life unfold and reacting to it rather than impulsively trying to control it.

We can have it all, maybe not all at once. Life is a series of tradeoffs, but we can still be intentional about it.

We can slow down and be open to life’s surprises and gifts, lean into our talents, and welcome love while striving to grow a business and empower the next generation. It doesn’t have to be at our own expense.

I think the greatest lesson I have learned this year is that no matter how much I practice self love, until I forgive myself for my perceived faults and shortcomings, I can’t really be open to love in all its forms.

And more than anything, that is what I am looking forward to in year 27.

Lots of travel, too, of course, and Kayla Moran Law turns TWO, so we have lots to celebrate and more to grow!

I hope you’ll join me in this endeavor. Happy Thanksgiving, and thanks for reading,

xo Kayla